I’ve been sitting on this post since Monday debating what it was going to become. I was very tempted to just tell you how wonderful the conference was, and that’d be oh so true, but that wouldn’t be the whole truth.
First of all, if you were wondering what I am talking about, the Influence Network is a fabulous network of Christian women who are striving to use their blogs, small businesses and social media to the glory of God. This past weekend in Indianapolis they hosted a conference with wonderful speakers, workshops, worship and more.
And that’s where I spent this past weekend. It was a wonderful experience, but the conference was also hard and oh so challenging. Not so much while I was there, but since I’ve been back this week thinking about my blog, what it currently is and what it needs to become, I am definitely being pushed out of my comfort zone.
So far this blog has been a place to share my love of food, creating, my photography and classroom, and some of the times I get to spend with my wonderful family. But, this is just a sliver of my life. My life is SO much more than these few things. I rarely talk about my faith or my marriage, and I know this is out of fear. These things are so important to me and have shaped me from my core into the person I am today. All I could think this weekend was how will anyone be compelled to follow along with me, finding the joy in the details of life, if I’m not sharing those important details with you.
Someone at the conference this weekend said that if we didn’t want to build a community around our blogs we would just be writing in a journal where no one can see, but I’ve chosen to blog amidst a community.
If I truly listen to God, He is telling me:
- I have this blog to share my faith and how He has blessed me beyond all measure.
- To tell the story of Sean and my struggles and journeys over the past few years that I have so fiercely kept silent about and even though I know that they have molded me into who I am today.
- And to make more art! Create everyday and share it with others because creation is good.
All of these things will not happen over night, but I have a new resolve: to purposely work on them daily. Yes, daily. Practice is the only way to success and as Haley and Jessie said in both of their talks, we’ve been telling ourselves lies for too long. I always felt that my story, my art, my (fill in the blank) wasn’t good enough or important enough to share. But that is just a lie I have believed for far to long.
I am complete in Christ. I don’t need to feel ashamed when I don’t blog, create, love… the way I am supposed to. I just need to empty myself so that He can fill me up and start again a new.
This probably won’t be my last post about my experience at the Influence Conference, but I thought it was a good place to start.